06 April 2020

Singer Duffy details rape ordeal to 'help others who have suffered the same'

The singer Duffy has spoken out about her harrowing rape ordeal in the hope that it might 'help others who have suffered the same'.

In February Duffy, full name Aimee Duffy, released a short statement via her Instagram, saying she had been raped.

She has now written about her ordeal on her website, but has not said when it took place or named her attacker.

She wrote: "It was my birthday, I was drugged at a restaurant, I was drugged then for four weeks and travelled to a foreign country. I can’t remember getting on the plane and came round in the back of a travelling vehicle. I was put into a hotel room and the perpetrator returned and raped me.

"I contemplated running away to the neighbouring city or town, as he slept, but had no cash and I was afraid he would call the police on me, for running away, and maybe they would track me down as a missing person.

"I do not know how I had the strength to endure those days, I did feel the presence of something that helped me stay alive. I flew back with him, I stayed calm and as normal as someone could in a situation like that, and when I got home, I sat, dazed, like a zombie.

"I knew my life was in immediate danger, he made veiled confessions of wanting to kill me. With what little strength I had, my instinct was to then run, to run and find somewhere to live that he could not find."

Duffy hopes her account helps other rape victims (PA Images)

She goes on to say she would be 'alone' for weeks.

"In the aftermath I would not see someone, a physical soul, for sometimes weeks and weeks and weeks at a time, remaining alone. I would take off my pyjamas and throw them in the fire and put on another set. My hair would get so knotted from not brushing it, as I grieved, I cut it all off."

The 35 year-old said she told her story as she wanted other rape victims to feel 'less ashamed if you feel alone'.

"I am sharing this because we are living in a hurting world and I am no longer ashamed that something deeply hurt me, anymore. I believe that if you speak from the heart within you, the heart within others will answer. As dark as my story is, I do speak from my heart, for my life, and for the life of others, whom have suffered the same.

"I have no shame in telling you either I had spent almost ten years completely alone and it still burns my heart to write it. I owe it to myself to say it, I feel obliged to explain how challenging recovering truly was and to finally disclose it. I hope it comforts you to feel less ashamed if you feel alone."

The public had not heard new music from the Welsh singer since 2010 as a result of her ordeal.

She did release a single called 'Something Beautiful'  last month but said she won't be releasing new music for a while.

"And so, what about music from here maybe you ask? When I sing, I feel like a bird. But It’s not what this is directly about. I’m doing this to be freed, for all of me to be freed. What follows remains to be seen."

She concluded: "I can now leave this decade behind. Where the past belongs. Hopefully no more 'what happened to Duffy questions', now you know … and I am free."

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